What if You Are Already Living Your Fullest Potential?

So, I have this thing with living my fullest potential.

I'm always scared I won't get there or that I'll die having never known what it felt like to live my fullest potential.

Ironically, I'm also scared of reaching my fullest potential, like I'll lose my purpose and feel like, now what??  

When You’re Always Searching

You see, I'm an ambitious, overachieving, recovering perfectionist like many of you here (hiiii, I love you! ) and I realized the other day that I've been keeping my fullest potential just a bit out of reach, always searching for where I could be doing a bit better and asking myself did I really give it my all?  

My answer is always, mmmm, I'm not convinced.

What Even Is ‘Enough?’

For fuck sake, I am doing all-the-things.

I'm happy, I'm stretching myself, I'm taking good care of myself, my boundaries are getting better, and I'm pursuing my dreams.

Will it ever feel like enough??

The Answer is Not ‘Just One More Thing’

This all came to a head last week when I was feeling just on the edge of burnout (my first assignment for my Master's degree kicked my ever-loving ass ).

On the verge of tears from pushing myself to edit “just one more thing,” I closed my eyes and asked my heart, “when will I feel like I'm living my fullest potential? When will it be enough? I'm so exhausted.”

I was shocked what she whispered back:

You're already there, darling. You're enough. 

 UM, EXCUSE ME? 

What if You Are Closer Than You Think?

My heart gave me nothing but contentment back. She was so at peace, she felt so aligned. She didn't ask me to push harder, or try again or keep going.

She recognized me fully, wholeheartedly - I was already living my fullest potential.

I'm there. 

In that moment I felt like every single muscle in my body relaxed and the happiness from knowing this, living this, flooded my body.

I never allowed myself to consider I might already be there. 

And maybe you're already there too, darling?

Consider that this week. My hunch is that you're there, or you're closer than you think.